"The fellow was a hound."
Mrs. Grose considered as if it were perhaps a little a case
for a sense of shades. "I've never seen one like him.
He did what he wished."
"With HER?"
"With them all."
It was as if now in my friend's own eyes Miss Jessel had again appeared.
I seemed at any rate, for an instant, to see their evocation of her as
distinctly as I had seen her by the pond; and I brought out with decision:
"It must have been also what SHE wished!"
Mrs. Grose's face signified that it had been indeed, but she said
at the same time: "Poor woman--she paid for it!"
"Then you do know what she died of?" I asked.
"No--I know nothing. I wanted not to know; I was glad enough I didn't;
and I thanked heaven she was well out of this!"
"Yet you had, then, your idea--"
"Of her real reason for leaving? Oh, yes--as to that.
She couldn't have stayed. Fancy it here--for a governess!
And afterward I imagined--and I still imagine. And what I
imagine is dreadful."
"Not so dreadful as what _I_ do," I replied; on which I must
have shown her--as I was indeed but too conscious--a front of
miserable defeat. It brought out again all her compassion for me,
and at the renewed touch of her kindness my power to resist broke down.
I burst, as I had, the other time, made her burst, into tears;
she took me to her motherly breast, and my lamentation overflowed.
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